Here it is............day one of my new life. I am trying to be positive about everything. I really do want to lose this weight and I know that this is the way to do it. I can't believe how hard it is to really start over again. Wow, I never would have guessed. Maybe because I didn't plan on having to start again, I don't know. Here I am getting ready to change my life, and I want the changes badly, but in my mind, I don't want to give up any of the foods that I love. I know that I can't have it both ways and I really need help this time. Cindy, how do I get a hold of you? I am computer stupid in a lot of ways, and I haven't figured out how to get you email addy.......... anyway, I just had another thought of how I can find it...I hope it works.
Hope everyone has a great day
as always, until next time, take care

to start over again

Hi everyone, and sorry it has taken me so long to update this. I received a call the other night from DD.ca, and I am afraid that I wasn't very nice to the person on the other end of the line. It just really kind-of set me off that they called to remind me to update my blog. It wasn't her fault that I am slacking in that department, but it upset me to think that I needed a reminder. I told her that other things had been happening my life that were more important than writing in my blog or even more important than turning on the computer. I am sorry that I was rude and if I hurt her feelings, I didn't mean to. That was the frame of mind I was in at the time. I definitely have had my share of problems. I am not trying to make excuses for me, or my actions, just trying to tell you what is happening. So sorry dd. I did not mean to offend, just defend myself. In the last few weeks, I have not had a very good time trying to stay on my diet, and all the stress that has been part of my daily life, has made it even harder. I just mixed up a new batch of hcg and I am really serious about starting again. I know that this whole batch will be used in helping me lose all that I have regained, and that too is embarrassing. Not something that I want to admit. But there it is in black and white........my shame........I plan on starting over (for real this time) on the weekend. So in 2 days, I will start the loading process to start me on my weight loss journey again. This IS going to be the last time that I have to restart. My life has quieted down some and I think that I am handling the stress better now. No more illness and other factors. Now is the time.........LETS DO IT!
until next time.......take care

down 5

just a quick note to let everyone know that I am down 5 lbs so far.......not as good as I had hoped, but good enough......
sorry this will not be a long post, I have lots to do........
Until next time, take care

Hello

So much has been happening since I posted last week.... My head is still spinning.......oh the stress! We finally made it to Idaho for my meeting, and that went well. Brenndan was told he had to go with us and that he didn't have a choice.......he wasn't happy about that leaving his girlfriend......... poor baby.........I feel sorry for him....NOT.... He made it out of the hospital without having to have surgery like they thought he might need. Lucky for him, because we don't have insurance and he is 18 so it is his bill.............and it is already costing enough.

I started my loading on Tuesday.........Monday just got away from me and I forgot to give myself the injection. I had the loading part down ok though...... :) So tomorrow is going to be my vlcd 1. I am ready for this challenge! and after what I have been through the last 3 weeks, I think that this one will be easy. I am so ready to start again, because that is where I am now, just like the first time never happened. That makes me sad, but this time, I know what to expect and what to watch out for. I will post stats later..........even though I am ashamed that I gained everything back.........I am hoping for a less stress week this week......... I do have to say tho, even gaining the pounds back, I have not regained all the inches back and, I can still fit into my size 20's or most of them. That to me is still success, because even though I have regained weight my body is still smaller than it was to begin this journey.
Anyway, I hope things are well with everyone. I will do some catch up reading the blogs during this week. I had better get some chores done.......Until next time, take care.