Here I go again

I am finally back on track...... I have done a lot of soul searching, and I have come up with the conclusion that I am in charge, so I am taking my dream back. I AM going to do this the right way, so now that all this stress is part of my daily life, I am not going to use it as an excuse anymore. I will start again using Thanksgiving as one of my loading days. I know that it is going to be tough, but I CAN DO IT! I am so ready for this. I am finally doing this for me again. It goes back to the serenity prayer......God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change; courage to change the things I can; and wisdom to know the difference. I am ready now.. I am starting over.......I am ready to change the things I can......
Gotta run,
until next time, take care

sorry

Today is the first time this week that I have even turned on the computer. Lots of crap going on. So far this week, I have had to have my car towed, my son is not ever home much, and my husband is one of the newest to fall to the ranks of the unemployed. We haven't had much luck finding anything for him. He has not been paid for a month and we still have one more week of waiting before he can start collecting unemployment. So far any restitution for Brenndan's assault has not showed up. Bills are piling up, and I can do nothing about them.....and lastly, my car broke down, and we are looking at having to replace the engine.......so even though I vowed that this last start would be the last time that I would have to restart, I guess I lied. I am so ashamed of my lack of will power......
well, I had better go.......gotta get some errands ran......until next time, take care

seems like I talk a good game, but I am struggling to stay on the eating plan and do what I need to do. Still down about 10 lbs, but no more than that......nothing else has changed in my personal life......until later, take care

Frustration

I am sooooo frustrated.......my weight loss has been going well, I am down about 6.5 Just not much is going well right now......Last week, after not being paid for almost a month, my hubby's employer told everyone to apply for unemployment. Well we tried to do that on Thursday night, and there is an employer listed that we don't have any idea who it is..........so until we actually talk to WFS we cant do anything else. Then, on Friday, when my husband could actually call and talk to someone, they were closed, because the "state employees" only work 4 days a week. It make it really hard for the average person to get a hold of someone. So now that it is time for the mortgage to be paid, we don't have the money............But I guess that is besides the point.....
Next, my son applied for assistance with his hospital bills, but because he has never had to deal with all these kinds of issues, he requested that I be his "representative" I have spoken to these people twice, and today when I called to find out what is going on, I was told that my name is nowhere on the computer as being the representative, so they will tell me nothing. I am sooo frustrated...............You don't have any idea how badly I want to scream, cry, stamp my foot or do anything that will keep me from eating even though I don't want to......I don't want to start again........
sorry to vent, but I do feel a little better just writing it down and speaking about it............better get, the phone is ringing.........maybe it will be good news.........
until later, take care