Things I have learned this week

I have learned this week that people will always jump to conclusions without getting all the facts. I learned that according to a post on the yahoo group this week, we (the challengers) all are doing badly at this weight loss. We just didn't meet someone else's expectations I suppose. I learned that just the way it was worded, really set me off and I wasn't very nice in my reply. I am sorry if I offended anyone over that. I learned that time gets away from you when you are focusing on something very hard. I learned that I am very tired, and sometimes I don't have the patience for stupid people. Especially when I am the one who is being stupid!

Today was the last day of work until August 21st. Yippee now I can concentrate on cleaning my house and taking care of my garden. I thought about going back and doing water aerobics again. I really enjoy that, but it starts at 6am and I am not sure I want to get up that early. I am also not sure that it would affect my weight loss.. to me it doesn't seem to be a workout, because you have the water .......I don't know......what do you think? I know that KT brings up the chlorine issue and that it is not good for you. I am not sure that I want to because of that, but I did enjoy doing them when I was going.

My weight has gone up a bit, but I am still in the 2 lb range for P3. Actually I was at 250.4 this morning, and that is .4 over the 2 lb range, but I didn't do a steak day, if it is still up tomorrow, I will do one then, because I didn't sleep well at all last night. I was still awake at 3 this morning. I was finally getting some sleep when the alarm went off. I plan on getting to bed early tonight......
There hasn't been anything exciting happen, and no new things to report.
So I will sign off for now.....

Cheers, to my new friends, we are all doing wonderfully...
Until next time...........

Time goes by too fast.......

Wow this week has just seemed to fly by! It seems like just yesterday was Monday and here it is Thursday already....
Where did it go?

I'm Back!

Well, here I am again. It has been a very interesting weekend. On Saturday night we had a BBQ with friends, and it was awful! There was nothing there that was protocol friendly, so I did the best I could without hurting her feelings and then when we got home, I ate me a salad. I have maintained my LIW so far. Although, we will see what happens tomorrow. Today, we had a BBQ with another family, and I ate the chicken, but there was not a salad or veggie in sight.. I ate some of the potatoes (homemade hashbrowns with onion and sourcream) and a couple of potato chips. Funny thing is, almost immediately after I ate, I had the overwhelming urge to throw up...........I haven't yet......since then, my stomach is just churning. I don't think my body likes the potatoes......So I am afraid of the what the scale will show tomorrow. But I have steak ready and waiting.

It has rained continuously for the last 4 days. That is ok, but my roof started to leak.....and just over my bed too. So instead of going to the family reunion, we stayed home and did repairs to the house, and cleaned up some of the yard. Moved a shed and mowed.....we have 1.74 acres. It was my grandparents place before we bought it from the family, and the family just didn't care about it, after my grandparents passed. It is a big project. Still not done. Will we ever be? I don't know....maybe, hopefully........We have hauled out plenty of metal and an old car and engines and just a lot of junk. We have also burned a lot of tree limbs and just old wood from various shed that have falled down. Right now, my yard looks like a redneck palace. :) We are in the process of fencing and getting ready to build a chicken coop and maybe getting a cow. I have a large garden spot and plenty of fruit trees. Then I would be set... problem is, it costs a lot of money for the water... I will just do the best I can. We will see just how much is done.

Well, there hasn't been anything else that I have remembered, and I have been basically pretty good considering all that I had to work with this weekend. I just hope that the scale will be kind to me. If not, I am prepared. Until next time.
Take care

Remembering things.......

Today I was at 248.2 which is .2 over my LIW. I was afraid that I blew it. I worked a banquet and all they had to offer was basically a Thanksgiving dinner without the salad. So that is what I had. I took a little bit of turkey, I tried the mashed potatoes, the stuffing and the dressing. I also had a piece of the cherry pie. Well, I didn't eat it all......it just didn't taste that good to me. I tasted and then I was satisfied. Not even what I would have picked anymore. I wanted my salad and just the protein that I would have chosen. It is funny how my eating habits have changed and I don't even want the other stuff anymore. I will taste it, but so far, I have ended up throwing more of it away than what I will eat because it just doesn't taste good to me anymore.
Tonight we went out, and I ordered an omelet, (3 egg white) with tomatoes, cheese, onions, mushrooms, and olives in it. It was good, but again, it left me wishing that I had just gotten a salad. I am on P3, so I didn't eat anything that I wasn't allowed to have. I gave the toast to my husband who didn't get his bread with his meal, and left the hash browns there. I was very satisfied and wasn't worried about saving it.
After we got home, I was looking on my site that I visit regularly, about this "diet" and I came across a post that hit home to me. It was about blurred vision.... I didn't think about it back then (2-3 weeks ago) but after reading it, I knew that I had to respond. So I did and here is a copy of what I wrote
" too had a problem with blurred vision for about a week. I was really worried, but I didn't think that it was because of the HCG.So I went back to the eye doctor and he told me that if I was getting off of sugars, that it would clear itself up, but in the meantime, just to wear my reading glasses......or just some generic ones. I bought 3 pairs at the Dollar General, and wore them until my vision cleared up. I now see even better than I did before it happened, and until now, I didn't ever think to blog it in my challenge.......HMMM that was kind of dumb of me........I should have put it in there....." so there it is. I told the doctor that I was losing weight and not eating sugars, and he said that explained it. It made sense to me. I had been diagnosed with diabetes a few years ago, but am not taking any medications for it, so it made sense. Anyway, that is the story.
Not much else is happening. We are supposed to go to Arizona this weekend for a family reunion. I dont know if we will make it or not, so there is a possibility that I won't post for a few days. If not, I hope everyone has a great weekend and holiday.

Funny things

This week and last week I have been on the dessert duty for lunch at work. For those of you who don't know, (0r if I didn't post it) I am a lunch lady at one of the local high schools. Last Wednesday I had the wonderful? opportunity to make cake. Well, it looked beautiful. I cut it and frosted it and put it on trays to serve. Barbara, one of my co-workers complained that I didn't put enough frosting on it. I personally thought that 1/4 inch thick was plenty, but not her. She was complaining because it wasn't 1/2 to 3/4 thick. YUCK! Anyway, her comment to me was I guess we better not let the person on the diet frost the cakes anymore.......My thought was fine with me.....even when I wasn't "dieting" I never liked the frosting that thick. She kept on and on about it until I finally got up, went to the walk-in (fridge) and got the bucket of frosting and a knife an took it to her.....I told if it wasn't enough, she could put on as much as she wanted to. She quit complaining.........The next day the complaint was that I didn't put enough whipped topping on the jello.....and so today, we had Apple Betty with Carmel sauce, and I let everyone know that I wasn't going to put it on.....they would have to because I was on a "diet" They just laughed at me.......I was really offended at first, but now they are watching me really close so I don't dare mess up... Now it is just a joke.....

When I got home from work today, I had a notice on my door that my power had been shut off. I missed the stupid payment.! they shut it off for less that $30 in past due! I had to pay a reconnect fee and a deposit, and the past due balance before they would turn it back on...it took them less that an hour to have it back on, but I was really frustrated........I could see if it was waaaaay past due and over $100, but $30? and the funny thing about that is, that it wasn't technically due until today anyway, so whats up with that? No matter, it has been taken care of. So much for having any money for this weekend.......although, I got a letter saying that our stimulus package should be arriving around the 23.....Maybe it wont be so bad after all?
Gotta run.............
later

Phase 3

Well, today is the 1st day of phase 3. I am sorry that I didn't write over the weekend. I ended up getting that flu. I am feeling better now, but I am still achy, and the headache isn't completely gone. I ended up with the 248.0 as my LIW. I was so hoping it would go back down to the 245. Oh well, I didn't do so well with food anyway being sick and all. All in all I am pleased with the progress so far. I am thinking about doing a short round of P3 and ending it in 2 weeks instead of 3. I am excited to get going down again. I would like to be under 200 by the time school starts again, and I wouldn't mind being in a size 14-16..or smaller by then either. I don't think that is an unrealistic goal. Funny thing about that is, I haven't been that size or weight in over 20 years. It is my high school's 25 year reunion this year.......I would love to walk in and totally blow them away with the way I look........(I know, vanity :))
So I am noticing areas where there has obviously been significant loss of weight and my skin is getting baggy. How long does it take to correct that and not be baggy? I know that it is supposed to correct itself, but I was wondering. I would love to be able to wear short sleeve shirts....or at least shorter sleeved ones....
Also, what about varicose veins? I am finding that I have some of those that I didn't know about being so heavy, but as the weight is going down, they are showing up. Is this something that I need to worry about? They are really not very attractive. ~sigh~
Not much else that I have noticed yet. I will keep you updated as to what I decide about the shorter round......I do however want to go through the cookbook and plan out what I will eat on what days. I think that will help me not want to cheat. As far as today went, I found myself wanting the simple foods that I have been eating. I didn't want the cheese or the butter or anything that is OK on P3. So for lunch I had roast beef with mustard and a salad. Funny that I didn't want what I could have......
Until next time, take care......
Dawna

Phase 3

Well, after reading some more, I realized that it is not in my best interest to quit now and transition into P3. I posted yesterday that TOM was the factor that influenced that decision, and now I just read that I will need to do at least 3 more injections after TOM as per protocol. It just so happens, that is how many I have left. Darn! and I was so looking forward to all the foods available on P3. I want to try the cheesecake that has been posted on the Hcg diet forum that is P3 friendly. Oh well, a few more days isn't going to hurt me. I was up to 248.8 this morning.........maybe water weight with it being TOM? I am hoping anyway. I haven't cheated. I also know that I haven't slept well for the last 2-3 days, and there is a flu that is going around at work that I really don't want, but I am afraid I am getting. I am very tired, achy and have a headache that doesn't seem to want to go away.

On a positive note, I have recently seen 2 of my cousins, and neither one could get over how "good" I am looking. One of them even grabbed me by the face and said that it was looking really thin... and wow she couldn't get over the changes. It was very uplifting. I am fitting into size 20 for the first time in about 4 years. I even did some window shopping today, but I decided that I don't want to buy new clothes until I am down even more. It just isn't fun to go shopping and not want to buy because it will waste money.

Well, I had better get........gotta get dinner going.........
TTFN,
Dawna

LIW

Today was my last injection. I was going to finish out the rest of my injections seeing as how I only have 3 left. They are in the freezer. TOM decided to show up late of course, and I figured that instead of skipping a few days and then taking my last 3, that I would just go into P3 so my last VLCD will be on Thursday. I will start again on the VLCD in about 3 weeks. My last injection weight is 245, so I ended this round at 17.8 lbs lost..........I am not complaining. Things have gotten pretty busy around here and next weekend we are supposed to be going to Arizona for a family reunion. I don't know if we will get there or not seeing that gas prices are ridiculous. It just depends.

Finally

Well, I finally lost a lb after a 2 week stall (I still think that part of it was the bread making, but that is done for the rest of the school year...YEAH!) I am thrilled......I am now down to 246.4. that is 16.4 lbs in 3+ weeks. My round of injections are coming to an end. I have 7 more before I go into P3. It was not the big success that I was hoping for, but I will take it, and be happy about it. I think that I might try a short round or 2 next. Not sure yet. I had Lowell help me do my measurements too.......wow.....I have lost 19 inches overall. most from my ribs and waist. All of my clothes are starting to hang on me.......time to hit the thrift stores........I cant afford to do new clothes while still losing......I have gone down 2-3 sizes in pants....people are starting to notice the differences. I have one co-worker who is 'trying' to help and when she eats something that I shouldn't have, she tells me how awful it is. I did break off a piece of cookie the other day and put it in my mouth and it truly was awful! It tasted like the shortening/butter that it was made from.....I spit it out very fast........talk about gag. I think that I have lost my 'sweet tooth'. I just really dont want it. My biggest problem lately is I want something crunchy and celery doesn't satify that. Anyone have any suggestions?
I guess I had better run and get some sleep. All week that is what I have wanted to do when the alarm went off. Now watch........tomorrow because I can sleep, I wont. That is just the way it goes for me........
Until later, take care
Dawna

Still Stalling....

After so many days of stalling, it finally broke my will power and I fell off the wagon so to speak......I forgot my chicken at home and the only protien source I found at work (that I was willing to eat) was some breaded chicken. It was either that or some USDA mystery meat labeled as a hamburger pattie. I guess if you can get past the "processed" smell of it, it might be ok. I picked all the breading off, but I am sure that it was cooked in oils and was really a no no. What's done is done. Then I wanted something sweet, so I caved in and had a half a donut before I realized what I was doing. (maybe an alien sucked out my brain?) When I realized what I did, I threw the rest of the donut away, but again...........the damage has been done. So, I figure that I will probalby gain again, but I am determined to finish the day as if I didn't have a problem......pretend that it didn't happen instead of dwelling on the negativity of the cheating. Just as one of my co workers says, Just put on your big girl panties and deal with it........
I will post my new measurements probably tomorrow.....Lowell is going to help me get them tonight..........He just doesn't know that yet ;)
I ordered some liquid stevia flavors and was so excited because they came on Friday, just to open the box and have one of them broken and it isn't my order..........this one was supposed to go to someone in Hawaii...I wish I was there .......but I'm not........
Well, until later............

Stalling

Today is the 4th day that I have been at the same weight. I know that I am losing inches, but it is really frustrating not to see the scale go down too. I am hoping for a good loss tomorrow. I started out with the intention of doing an apple day, but I didn't make it. I gave in to the cucumber and strawberry salad that Tammy has in her cookbook. I got a lot of funny looks from my co-workers. One even said, "if I didn't know better, I would think you were pregnant." I just smiled, but I was laughing on the inside. If she only knew. Other comments were, at least it is colorful. But no-one was brave enough to try it.....that is ok, it left more good stuff for me....at least my 'cheat' today wasn't really a cheat.
I know that part of the stall is the oils from making the bread at work that I mentioned in my last post. I have been wearing gloves the rest of this week, but I was wondering if maybe I am still getting some of that oil transfering onto my skin through the gloves. I have not been cheating, but I have been tempted to. I want some chinese food really bad. I know that mixing veggies is not allowed, so I am waiting until I am on P3.....them maybe. I will have to look in the cookbook to see if I can find anything that will satisfy my cravings.
Well, it is time to get to bed.....I need my "beauty sleep".......
Until later...............